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i never found my parent. i cant understand why they will not see me. ignore me. while it is true that my kind does not often make the effort to find one another. pleas for contact are not usually ignored. i am tired. of going on these ventures. they will never see me. never. i hate returning. empty handed. again. perhaps they meant to find me. perhaps i left to soon. next time. next time i will leave something for my parent. maybe if i try harder they will answer me.

disapointment

i don't think that my parent is here

watching

i am still tired. too tired to take a new shape. so i watch. sometimes. his life it is really quite boring.

decisions

last time i tried to find my parent. it lead to nothing. i cannot find them. i do not know their face. is it even worth it to try again?

a note

i will make a note. those who wish to know his name. i will not say it. not risk him finding out. finding me. not risk you telling him. you will not find him. you will not warn him. 

merago i dont know what youre talking about. you assume much. know nothing. and are wrong. 

parent

my parent is going to be in the area. sort of. calgary isn't very far away. only a day or so. if i walk fast enough...
i havent seen my parent in 8 years. it is the way of our kind. there is no such thing really as a 'maternal' instinct.
i wonder if it is worth it to go.

shapes

it is hard to pretend for quite that long. i abandoned my shape today. for now i will rest.  i will take a new shape. soon but not for so long again. their lives are monotonous. pretending for that long... i don't like it.